Time for a change

I was going to post a picture of myself but I just can't bring myself to do it. Since I've been going to the Dr. so much with headaches, they've weighed me every time. This is worse than dealing with the headaches!!! I get sweaty, my heart races, I want to throw up. Put the weight on 150, nothing, 160, nothing, 170, still nothing. OH NO, I'm going to pass out now. 180 and climbing. We hit 189 and I breathe a sigh of relief that it didn't get past 190 but still 189 is too close for my comfort. Now some may say that I just had a baby 8 months ago and I'm not a teenager anymore who can eat or drink whatever I want and have no consequences. But still, I had him 8 months ago, he was almost 10 lbs and I've only lost 11 lbs since having him, something is not right. Then there is the physical aspect of it all. I finally went and bought some bigger clothes because wearing maternity clothes 7 months after having a baby is a bit disheartening. So now I have some comfortable clothes but can't stand to look at myself in the mirror to see how frumpy I look. Even putting makeup on I want to smack the girl in the mirror with all those chins, like what is wrong with you, lose this weight already. So I've finally decided I need to buckle down and do something, that is where you (my 1 reader) comes in. I need you to rally for me. I'm going to try to get on here once a week and talk about my weight, maybe that will help to motivate me, knowing I have someone to share it with. I guess I'll have to get a picture on here so you can see what I'm talking about. I'm going to buy a scale today so I can keep track myself and I'm so glad the weather is getting nicer because at least now I can get out and walk with the kids. Let me tell you that pushing that huge double stroller with those 2 kids is a darn good workout. My goal is to eat a little healthier also. I've been buying fresh fruits and veggies but I will also pick up a bag of candy at the same time....not good. Anyway, time to get to the store. Wish me luck for the week!!! Maybe I'll be at 186 the next time I write... :)

Wow, I'm on again!!!

Yay, so as of 2/20/09 I am officially a sahm now!!! I was thinking before reality set in that my house would be clean, my children would be entertained all day long and take a nap so that I could do some blogging or something else involving some me time.... Welcome to the real world Melissa!! Caleb is all over the place now so I have to keep everything that I'm trying to do with Hannah away from him, otherwise he trys to eat it. Paper seems to be his favorite. But how can you not give this little face whatever it wants?

I also thought that my laundry would be "caught up" and I have since discovered that there is no such a thing. I can do 10 loads only to find that Brian and the kids have created at least one more for me. However, I have discovered that I truly love it. I love being able to say I got to see Caleb stand up for the first time or try to say uh oh or DaDa. He has been climbing the stairs and I got to be home for that. Although I miss the world of adult conversation, I get to mold my kids into the adults they will become, hopefully I'll do a good job at it. I think I've done ok so far. Justin is a good kid!!

And then there is my princess Hannah. She is the one that actually keeps me busy the most!!! Of course I guess at almost 4 that shouldn't be surprising. I can't wait until the weather is nicer so we can go outside and play. I'm very excited about this!! I wasn't sure how I would actually feel because I've never not worked but I'm truly enjoying it!! How could I not when I get to see this beautiful smile everyday...

Well, hopefully now I can write about my adventures in mommyland and post some pictures more often!! Here is a great one to get you through to the next!!