My crazy life

I sit here with a million things running through my mind. This is on top of my normal million things so you can imagine how crazy I must be feeling right now. A few... my internet stinks, for the amount I pay it should work more than 1/4 of the time. My family is all nuts, I love em, but man do they drive me crazy, that includes my husband, kids, parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, sister, brothers, all of them. I'm not "SuperMom". I would love to be and God knows I've tried but I can't do everything right all of the time.

I was watching something recently where this couple was given their own notebook to keep a daily journal and I thought, well that's something I haven't done since I was a teenager and I have a lot of thoughts during the day, a lot of which go unstated so maybe that's not a bad idea for me. But then I was thinking tonight, I have a blog, how much more fun and hey, something to write about. Maybe I'll be on more than once every 2 months, even if no one reads it, I'll at least get to vent my feelings on something, right? And I can type way faster than I can write so I won't get writer's cramp. :) win win all the way around. So here I go....

My grandparent's house (the house I grew up in, but so as not to confuse anyone I will call them grandparents instead of mom and dad) had a sign over the entrance from the kitchen into the living room that said "The hurrier I go, the behinder I get" and that really struck a cord with me today. With 3 kids and how ever many others I end up with during the day, my house ends up looking like something out of a horror film, minus the blood...well most of the time anyway. And it's funny to me how I can clean and clean and clean in one room while my children destroy another. For example... I took the kids to the library today. I want Justin to continue his learning during the summer so he is not behind during his 5th grade year so I thought what a good idea going to the library. Justin picked out a magazine, a Curious George book and 3 Star Wars books. Hannah and I picked out 5 books together that we can read through the week and then take them back next week for 5 more. (We're working on the alphabet right now.) Well, long story short, Justin and his friend Chris used toothpaste on a game they were trying to get to work (don't ask me, seriously) and it was left in the livingroom. So Hannah, who is fascinated with lotions and stuff like that decided to lather her hands and one of Justin's Star Wars books up with the toothpaste. This is as I'm washing dishes and cooking dinner and dealing with Caleb who wanted nothing but to be held since he didn't have a good nap today. So, as I'm cleaning up that mess, Hannah is in the bathroom washing her hands and I put Caleb down to clean off the book, where do you think he goes? In the bathroom with his sister so he can pull all the toilet paper off the roll. I guess I should be grateful that he didn't play in the toilet....again. But dinner is done, Hannah and Caleb are asleep, the dishes are in the sink where they will stay until tomorrow and I can finally breathe!!!

One thing I would write if this was a journal is what a HORRIBLE mother I felt like today. Justin, who is 10, amazingly enough, still believes in such things as the Easter Bunny, Santa Clause and the Tooth Fairy. Well, my poor son has been through a lot with his teeth. The top 4 front had to be pulled when he was 3 or 4 and then he had extensive work done in the hospital when he was 5 (Hannah has followed in his footsteps, she has no top teeth at the age of 4). Last night was the first night he has ever lost one of his baby teeth on his own and guess who "forgot" to come take his tooth from under his pillow last night??? The worlds worst mom!! Luckily, we were able to discuss the fact that he put it under a pillow on the side of his bed and not the one that he normally sleeps on so she was just not able to find it and if he puts it in the right place tonight, she should be able to find it. I think Brian thinks it's crazy I still let him believe in such stuff like that but I say let these kids hold on to their innocence as long as possible. As it is, he's in love with Hannah Montana, won't be long until he's in love with some girl in school....

Anyway, I think that is actually all I can think of right now. It was nice venting a little!! C-ya next time!!